I thought that I should probably write down some things related to ECT and recovery, as it has been intense. For example today at home I got super intense panic attack. It was the same feeling I got right when I woke up from anesthesia, except that I just woke up from normal sleep. Just for a moment I did not understand anything,...
Well I do not remember making this picture at all, but this was indeed made by me and art therapy teacher packed it to take with me at home. I am sure that at one point I will actually make a post about all the art pieces I created at the hostpital. The art therapy classes were highlights of the days and made...
I have been at the hospital for a long time already. I have gained some weight by now as well and tomorrow I am going home; there are several plans of action too. For example I have an agreement with my sister that in case my weight drops 3 Mondays in a row, she can take the lead and call my doctor who...
It seems like today was my last round of ECT. One girl had it done 7 times, but for me they have always said 6 is the optimal. So hopefully it was last time. How am I feeling.... I don't really know. It may still be too early to give a conclusion, because ECT really messes with your mind/brain and I can make...
Today it was the fifth time for ECT, meaning next on Wednesday will be the last one. And I do feel better, people tell me I even look better. The bad part is that I still haven't gained more than 1 kg since I came to stay at the hospital. And if by the end of this month there is no weight gained,...
"Everything fits you so well." "You are so lucky for being able to eat anything you want." "Well you don't have to worry about food." "You are so skinny you fit into everything." "How are you so thin?" "Skinny people are always cold." "You don't even have to worry about food." "Do you work out?" Cold. Painful. Staring at myself in the mirror....
Illustration of ECT. I have decided to have all these posts available to read without password. Because for example for me, it would have been really beneficial to read someone's experience regarding the treatment. Today there was 4th session. It is annoying that people are asked to go and get the treatment in living queue - it is impossible to predict what time...
Today I had third session of ECT. As always, Estonian post of 3rd session is here. It is bit annoying that we never know what time we have to get going from our building to the one they do ECT, so as soon as I wake up, I have to be ready. In addition to this, we cannot eat or drink anything, as the...
Today was the second time. Alltogether there will be about 6 sessions of ECT for me. Maybe even more, if necessary, since some people have done it 10 times. But at the end o the treatment it is possible that I am allowed to be at home and only come to the hospital on the days they have the treatment. The weight issue...
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Depression and electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) / 1st session
I think most people know that unfortunately I have spent 8 weeks in psychiatric hospital, due to eating disorder, depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder. I have now undergone ECT, which is a therapy that is done under general anesthesia and used for clinical depression. I have been taking medication or 6 years, but even though I have had some easier time, it seems that...
