I Won't Quote

Me and my roommate finally put together this 1000 piece puzzle. Mostly it was her work, but I did help quite a bit! Monday Breakfast - oatmeal, bread with butter, cheese and tomato, toast with egg and butter, coffee. (Eating was generally fine, I was upset that there was also kefir which I have to have as a snack. So I am going...

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Monday My weight check was okay, as I mention in the end of my previous post, but at the snack time, everything had to turn into shit again. I just cannot deal with my emotions and it is getting harder and harder. Why won't it be easier for me? Everyone else seem to do better. Everyone else seem to be able to beat...

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Kolmapäev Breakfast 8:30 - millet porridge, coffee, bread with butter and cheese, toast with butter and tomato, strawberry yoghurt. (Not my favourite porridge nor yoghurt, but I got it down. I had a stomach ache even before breakfast, and after this I felt really uncomfortable.) Snack 11:00 - 6 pieces of Milka peanut and caramel chocolate. (Again thank you for my friend who...

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I thought for a long time if I want to post about this, but finally I decided that yes, I want to. I had to take some extra chocolate with my vanilla pudding. And more chocolate pieces than usually. So I was unwrapping it and saw that there is a new element on the chocolate. They have noted down that to burn calories...

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I decided to make the posts from Monday to Thursday and from Thursday to Monday, because it will be a full circle like this. I hope it makes sense. Thursday Morning just flipped me right off. I wrote more about this on my post about living from weigh in to weigh in. The evening was not better, I cried a lot and tried...

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Monday Morning weigh in showed that I have lost 200 grams, so my weight currently is 38,7 kgs. I have no idea how this is possible, because I have eaten three times a day + 3 snacks every single day. It seems illogical. I was deadly afraid that 40 kgs will be broken now, but apparently not. Also the doctor warned me that...

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Tuesday Went in for a scan for bone density today. It was really weird, some machine was just over me nad made some beeping sounds. The results should be in within a few days or next week by the latest. I have written down hospital menu, mainly so I could follow it when I get home. To make sure I stick to the...

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Someone brought me flowerssss. I am writind down some meals and snacks from the hospital, so I could follow it when I am going home. I guess I need that kind of guide. Friday Breakfast 8:30 - buckwheat porridge, glass of milk, bread and toast with butter, egg and tomato. Snack 11:00 - vanilla curd cream Lunch 13:00 - beetroot soup, slice of...

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Fresh emotions from morning get together - I managed to cry openly, and a lot. Today morning we were weighed again, which meant that in 4 days I have gained additional 1,2 kgs and my weight is now 38,7 kgs. I know that this is necessary and it helps me to get out of here sooner, but this is too much and too...

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Every morning we have to come up with three positive things from the previous day. I thought I would mark down a few things that have made staying here easier or things that have left me with positive emotion in general. + My relative came to visit me. I haven't seen her for years, but when we were talking, it felt as if...

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In Tallinn we had art therapy classes, where we could make all kinds of works. In Tartu we have different kind of therapy, which is still quite similar, but there is also an option to do more, like knitting and crocheting, solve puzzles etc. I gathered my focus and decided to do some art. I don't think my ideas are too original... or...

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Did some scrapbooking at the hospital and others really liked it. Wednesday Breakfast 8:30 - millet porridge, cup of coffee, cup of milk, bread with egg and butter, white bread with cheese and tomato, an apple. (I felt so full and I had no apetite at all.) Snack 11:00 - half of Geisha chocolate, cup of tea. (It is weird when you are...

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I am not on vegetarian (or pescetarian) diet. And this is my view from my window. Breakfast at 8:30: rice porridge, glass of milk, coffee, bread with butter, cheese and cucumber, white bread with an egg. Too much food. I am not used to this, my heart is beating super fast. It is so tough. And I keep looking at others and thinking...

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My mum drove me to the hospital in Tartu. To mental ward. Before that we went to a store where I got myself connecting the dots book, sudoku and crosswords and some chocolates. I arrived at the hospital and at first had to talk to some doctor and then to a nurse. I had to tell my whole life story in one go....

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